All I want is to be happy...
All I feel like I do is try to make other people happy...
At this point I don't know if that was ever fulfilling or not...
If it was, it sure isn't now...
How can I truly be happy if my happiness hurts others???
Or does that really matter???
Whose feelings should be spared???
Mine or everyone elses???
I don't know how everything became so complicated so fast...
Or did it really happen that fast???
Could I really have been so blind that I couldn't see how fucked up everything was becoming???
I have always looked to find my happiness in other people...
I know now that I need to be happy with myself before I can be happy with someone else...
Only thing is...
How do I do that???
